dying to learn

January 1, 1990

i feel strikingly stupid
from head to toe
and my mind, body, and soul
yearn
to just give up
i hate myself
because i don’t yet know
my senseless misdirection

inside is good nature
holding hands with
self hate

it’s hard to forgive
and forget
this regret

i live
but not love
the freedom of dove
which i have
and constantly try to negate

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